Depression Diary 2

I know... I have no rights to lament here. There are people out there who suffer worse fates than me. I can only sympathise them, as an acquaintant. I believe almost everyone in TPJC Choir is now extremely moody right now... especially those individuals who could not pass the 2nd round of Choir auditions. I've witnessed emotional release from different people, and how their close friends were consoling them, or even asserting that the unjust imposed on them should be redressed. I have to say that this was the second most elegaic moments in my life, the first being the SYF 2007. To all TPJChoir members, let us infuse our emotions into the songs, sing them well, and remembering to do ourselves and our fellow choirmates proud.

We can do it!!

Life's a bed of thorny nettles...

My mood has been on a crazy swing for these few weeks... probably caused by all the stress from CCA + studies... I might just faint out any moment. One moment, I'm in my normal composure, and another moment, I become the World's Most Edgy and Ignorant Bitch, exuding a super-dao'ness aura that could just bring anyone to their boiling point. Yeah... I'm extremely moody now. That subtle nauseatic feelings, the mild grogginess... it's tearing me apart. Right now, I need to learn how to relieve myself from all the surrounding stress-factors, and establish normal relationships with people again. I know I may have offended some people with my idiotic behaviour... sorry for being such a rude and arrogant bitch. Haha!

Okay I think I need my beauty sleep now, cuz tomorrow morning is my weekly workout, which is apparently useless in helping to keeping myself fit... Bye!

Love,
Eric the Amorphous Person

I'm so tired. Save me!

Ohhhhhh moi goodness... Everyday is getting more tiring than ever. I've been sleeping around 11pm and waking up at 5.40am... to avoid the insanely crowded bus horde. I had enough of the nonsensical, hellish bus rides... People are like squeezing themselves to death within the limited space, and the bus driver would keep yelling at passengers to move towards the rear, so as to allow more people to board the bus. You can just practically suffocate and die from extreme compression in the Cabin of Hell. Board your way to death....

Let me harp on the things that are draining my life bits by bits... Choir has been extended to longer hours, due to a lack of decent improvement, and a serious lack of time + focus. I couldn't imagine what will happen on the day of our SYF.

Secondly, a relatively minor issue, is the increasing frequency of homework input. Luckily I've managed to handle my tutorials + class tests... or else I would really die, since CCA has already taken away much of my precious time.

I sincerely wish that things can get better. Please, oh please. Save this outcast!


Praying... hoping...

Depression Diary

Not really in good mood for these 2 weeks. Firstly, I'm extremely troubled by the inconsistent and worrisome performance of the Choir, and the attitude some J1s are showing is definitely a harbinger of something bad. Ahh wells... I never expect much of anything since I left VS Choir... my passion for Choir somehow wanes a little...

Another sad event is the PW Results. Got a B... what a close proximity to A! If I got a C, I wouldn't feel that bad... anyway the PW was damn trashy.

Lastly, it's the widespreading flu disease that is irking me. People sneeze and cough liberally without covering their gloriously gaping nostrils and mouths.. Oh yah and buses need to be disinfected regularly. I saw some old uncles sneezing openly onto the window panes, and later on wipe the phlegm off and rub it onto the surfaces of the seats. It's like fucking disgusting... I wouldn't want to imagine the next unlucky person of the century to be sitting comfortably and ignorantly on the thoroughly infected seat of Hell...

I'm just hoping for a better tomorrow. People can be better, environment can improve... and ultimately my life can brighten up.

Choir Practice cum Mini Outing

Today had practice at a god-forsaken place situated at some hidden alley in Bugis. The weather was extremely unbearable, and when we reached our destination, we were all soaked thoroughly in sweat. Not to mention, the practice room was fiendishly stuffy at first, because the air-con didn't function properly. We were all half-dead from the exhaustion and boiling heat. Finally, Miss Ong came and saved us all from the air-con disaster... Phewwws...

After the practice, Sara, Amanda, Rebecca, Yvonne, Wan Ling, Ming En, CherylAnne and I went to shop at Bugis. Had a look inside the newly established shopping mall - Iluma. Wow I was quite amazed by the modern architecture of the grandiose edifice... Hope that all the stores can open ASAP!!

After hanging around at Iluma with the overhelming feeling of hunger, we went to Tampines 1 in search of food. Tampines 1 is gooood, it's compact with branded stores, and it made Vivocity seemed 'extra'. 3 Cheers for having a high-end shopping paradise at our home sweet home Tampines !! =p Well.... We ended up having dinner at Tampines Mall's BK... and had a nice conversation with the rest. After that we went to buy things... cuz we haven't really spend money on anything other than food products. Tomorrow's choir again... hope we can sing better!! Bye ~

Results Tracking

I need to track my results in order to improve... here's SA1's results.

Chemistry - A (75%)
Physics - A (73%)
GP - C (55%)
Maths - E (47%)
History - B (62%)

OVERALL SA1 GRADES: A, A, B, C, E

*Red indicates devastating drop in standard.

Comparing with Promos Results...

Chemistry - A
Physics - C
Maths - A
GP - E
History - S

Ever-boring days...

Been doing academic work... quite boring... for the sake of aceing the A Levels, I need to persevere =P ! Other than doing homework, there's practically nothing else to do except for DoTA... browsing through tpjc.net/Choir blog/my own blog/other blogs randomly... but everything's so lame and boring. Especially the stagnant school forum, which has no appealing/innovative/interesting things to discuss about. What a fucking bore. There's not much entertainment in Singapore... I wish I can return to HK and stay with my relatives... none of my relative stays in Singapore... Haiz...